Hello hi and assalamualaikum. After all lama dah tak update blog dengan perasaan yang tenang. Harini tibatiba ada rasa nak update blog. Nah, i'm not going to talk about feelings. This is a random update and I'm trying to talk about random things tanpa tuju kat sesiapa. Tapi takboleh lari lah kalau ada yang terasa sebab orang yang makan cili ni selalu rasa pedas. Tapi jujur cakap ni random update, talk based on observation gitu. Oiceh. Macam takda kerja duk observe oghang. Ah dolli apo aku.
So I would to talk about appreciation atau dengan kata lain nya penghargaan lah. Penghargaan ni macam nak buat report. Maksud aku pasal hargai dengan tak dihargai. Pasal menghargai lah gitu. jadi aku rasa engkorang semua ni mesti pernah dengar bait bait ayat yang berbunyi, "manusia akan dihargai bila dia dah takda". And aku sendiri setuju dengan ayat tu.
Okay. Aku kasi contoh. Hm. Macam ni lah, macam korang ni konon konon ada secret admirer lah. And korang kenal lah dia tu kan. Tapi kalau dah tahu siapa tak secret sangat lah. Okay peminat. Tapi macam artis pulak. Okay apa apa jelah. Bahasa biasa orang kata, ada orang minat korang. Ha macam tu.
Kalau dah nama minat, dah sah sah dia sayang. Kalau dah sayang, gunung berapi, lautan berapi, kereta api, semut api, sanggup ku redahi untuk mu oh sayang. Okay apa apa jelah. Sebab sayang macam macam lah dia buat untuk korang lah kan. Tapi kononnya masa ni korang macam biasa biasa je dengan dia, no feelings ah kira, ha so korang macam sedar tak sedar jelah kewujudan dia.
Pastu tibatiba satu hari dia hilang. Tak kira lah dia balik kampung ke, pindah sekolah ke, meninggal ke ape ke, yang penting dia hilang, dah sah sah korang dah kehilangan seseorang. Yelah. Dia dah hilang, so korang kehilangan lah. And masatu korang dah mula rasa dia pernah wujud dalam hidup korrang. Mungkin awal awal korang tak rasa. Tapi sebulan lepastu baru korang akan rasa. Tu pun kalau korang ada perasaan lah. Ha itu lah contoh aku untuk hari ni.
Jadi apa aku nak cakap kat sini, memang normal. Kisah menghargai ke tak ni, memang akan datang sekali dengan rasa kehilangan. Bila dah hilang mula lah rasa macam macam. Tapi apa aku nak tekankan kat sini, kita sebagai manusia ni patutnya hm belajar hargai orang masa dia ada depan mata. Takda lah dia nak menghilangkan diri.
Semua manusia, nak rasa dihargai. Kalau aku tanya korang pun, korang mesti cakap nak dihargai. Yelah. Mungkin ada yang akan cakap,
"Eleh kau. Nak buat baik, buat jelah. Nak kecoh kecoh suruh orang hargai kenapa?"
"Dia ni nak tolong orang ikhlas ke tak? Sibuk nak orang hargai"
"Setakat tolong buat benda seciput pun nak kena hargai ke?"
Okay apa apa jelah dalam kepala otak korang tu. Well. Put yourself at other's place. Letak diri sendiri dekat tempat orang lain. Bayangkan eh, kau tolong member kau buat kerja. Then dia terimakasih pun tak apa pun tak, dah tu bila kau minta tolong dia, dia asyik cakap takboleh je, what do you feel?
Hargai orang ni bukan lah sampai kasi bunga, kasi chocolate, kasi hadiah, bayar, belanja makan, blablabla. Alah, setakat cakap terimakasih and simpan elok apa yang dia buat tu cukup lah. Ni tak. Orang dah tolong korang buat kerja, korang boleh kutuk kutuk dia punya kerja, then tak cukup tu, korang boleh pulak jahanamkan effort dia tolong korang tu. Wake up people. Try to appreciate what people do for you.
Macamana nak appreciate tu, terpulanglah. Macam macam cara, contoh treat orang tu elok elok.. Hargai usaha dia untuk korang. Andai kata lah korang ada member yang suka sangat belikan korang itu ini, korang simpanlah. Ingat benda yang dia beli. Jaga elok elok. Kalau dia belikan kau makanan, takkan nak simpan. Ha itu bangang, Kalau dia belikan kau makanan, kau makan lah sampai habis. Jangan buang. Tu satu cara untuk menghargai jugak tu.
Tu berkenaan tolong secara kasar lah. Tapi kalau dari segi perasaan. Konon orang tu suka korang en, korang tak perlu pun nak layan perasaan dia secara terpaksa. Tapi cukuplah ye korang layan dia elok elok. Jangan ah macam, mentang mentang korang tak suka dia, dia buat baik pun korang dah nampak buruk. Semua nak hina, maki caci segala bagai. Konon tak nak melayan ah. Konon. Okay tak kisah. Cuba layan dia elok elok. Cuba layan macam kawan. Kawan yang macam kawan. Ha gitu. Takdalah dia terasa sangat sampai nak bawa diri jauh jauh.
Faham tak? Mentang mentang ada orang cakap, manusia ni akan dihargai bila dia dah takda, korang pun terus fikir, buat apa hargai masa dia ada, hargai lah masa dia takda. Yelah. Konon konon nak mengiyakan pepatah yang manusia dihargai bila takda tu. Takboleh macam tu brader. Nanti korang yang menyesal. Kenapa menyesal?
Okay. Bayang eh, orang yang selalu ada dengan korang masa susah senang, tapi korang tak hargai dia. Satu hari dia bawa diri sebab dia rasa dia tak diperlukan. Pastu korang konon menyesal dan rasa kehilangan. Masatu mula sedar dia tu penting. And mula lah nak cari dia. Kalau cerita melayu, selalunya orang yang bawa diri ni balik kampung. Ha kalau macam tu boleh lah kau cari dia. Pergi kampung dia ajak kahwin terus hah. Boleh lah korang tebus rasa bersalah korang tu. Takdalah menyesal sangat kan.
Tapi just imagine kalau orang tu hilang tanpa kehendak dia. Buatnya dah sampai ajal orang tu. Takkan korang nak pergi gali kubur dia nak minta maaf. Kalau dah takboleh minta maaf, mulalah menyesal. Well. I didn't say that tak menghargai orang ni satu kesalahan. Tapi macam tu lah. This kind of things happen bila korang buat benda yang tak sepatutnya lah pada orang yang banyak buat macam macam kat korang. Faham kan? Contohnya macam orang buat baik korang buat taik lah. Ha cemtu. So, tak elok kan. Ha kalau dah orang baik tu pergi untuk selamanya , cemana korang nak tebus salah silap korang tu?
Jadi aku nak seru korang semua. Belajarlah hargai orang masa dia ada depan mata. Cukup lah layan dia elok elok. Ingat semua jasa dia dekat korang. Ha. Macam aku cakap. Semua nak rasa dihargai. Tapi kalau korang takda rasa tu, aku minta maaf lah. Jadi itu saja dari aku untuk tengahari ni. Terimakasih kerana membaca entry kosong aku ni.
Selain itu, aku nak seru kepada semua jangan lupa vote babyboy aku untuk abp okay? Beli surat khabar berita harian, jumpa nama babyboy aku, ZIZAN RAZAK, ha tick je dekat nama dia. Sayang engkorang. Haha. Muah. Salam jumaat. Dan assalamualaikum. Dan aku tinggalkan korang dengan lagu baru blog aku, Let Her Go. Kena sangat dengan entry. Byeee.
Hi hello and assalamualaikum. With the new feelings, new spirit and whatever, I came here, eceh takyah nak came here sangat, saja je nak cakap tengah happy pastu rasa nak update blog. Seems like I'm to cool today. I don't know why but I feel like I am totally enjoyed my life today. hehe
Nampak tak I'm getting crazier. Semalam sedih sedih and today I started to claimed that I'm happy with my life. OMG. Crazy. Dah gila. Eh tapi tak pelik. Encik Fuad pun ada cakap jugak, budak senibina ni jarang yang normal. Aherherher
I think all of this happened because I've started to start a new life. Maybe? Nah. I just pretend like there's nothing happen. Everything is normal. And I didn't do anything wrong. Well, maybe I just choose not to care anymore. Trying to not to care about what will people think, what will people say, what will people feel. I DON'T CARE. Eceh.
Why should I care if they no longer care. Start a new things, and yeah. New me. Eh not really lah. I think I just back to normal. Back to who I used to be. Gedik pun gedik lah. As long as I enjoy my life. Talk to everyone like nothing's happen. Eh happy lah.
But not forget, thanks to peoples, that waked me up from those nightmares. I just woke up from sleep and I'm living my life again. Dia macam konon konon sleeping beauty baru lepas bangun tiduq lah. Haha. Makin cantik rasanya sekarang.
Every morning we get chance to be different. New day is a start for something new. That is what I did today. Try a little bit different step and yeah, well done. i'm feeling better. Thanks to Allah for giving me some strength so that I can face everything today. Ah excited nak mampus aku. Hopefully it is a good beginning. I hope everything stay like this. So that I can stay :)
You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Just believe in yourself lah kot. Well I talk based on experience. Tapi aku ni bukan lah matang sangat. Masih budak budak. Mungkin suami aku kang, matanglah orang nya. Ye dak? Eh tak memasal masuk bab suami. Hm gatal noh. Haha lantak lah. I don't want to talk much walaupun kat atas tu memang dah banyak aku bebel.
All I can say is just Alhamdullillah because I can face this day dengan tenangnya. Hihi. Bye and assalamualaikum :D
Hello hi and assalamualaikum. Another steps for today. I'm not saying that i've already move on but I think I'm feeling better than before. I don't know why but I know I can end everything here. Yes. End everything.
Deep inside my heart, I really wish I could turn back time and try to fix everything. In facts, I know I can't. So I've decided to let go everything. Its hurt knowing the person that used to means a lot to you is just a stranger right now. Yaaa. A stranger with a lots a memories. ]
I was a stranger to everyone right now. With a blink of eyes, everything changed. And I can't adapt with this changes. I just can't be alone. I've started to miss all of the memories. Memories where we used to laugh together, enjoy our time, be happy for each second, solve everything together, hey we have a lots memories. Too much to count.
But the truth is I really miss everything. Yaa, I know right now what am I doing seems so wrong. it would pissed you off. Aku dah buat buat macam takda apa yang jadi, tapi still keadaan tetap sama. Orang treat aku macam aku tak wujud. Cakap bila perlu. Bila aku diam orang cakap aku attention seeker. Bila aku bising orang menyampah. Then what can I do?
Its time to go I guess. Aku harap apa aku buat ni betul. Aku minta maaf semua salah silap aku. Sejujurnya, memang maaf sangat. Aku dah buntu taktahu nak buat apa. Korang hukum aku tanpa bagitahu apa sebab dia. Tapi aku belajar untuk terima. Mungkin semua salah aku :)
Good morning. Hi and assalamualaikum. Yes hello its me again. I don't think like there's someone could update anything for me here. Because this is totally my personal blog. You oll ni takkan lah nak tolong I update kan.
Well today I don't think like I have a specific idea on what am I going to share. It just a random update because I think like I want to talk but I don't have someone to talk to. At this early in the morning. Everyone is going to class while I am alone in this room talking to dust. Because I don't have anyone to talk to.
Its hurt when you know peoples near you no longer care about you. No longer want to think anything about you. Nah. You're not anyone to them, so what for they keep thinking of you? I mean, I used to put them at the third place after Allah and my family, but then I don't know where did they put me actually. Ah. Maybe at the bottom at their toes. Where they can kick me anytime, and pull me aside when they really need me. Oh god. Its totally hurt when you've been treat as a rubbish when you put everyone as your everything.
No no. CORRECTION, they actually care but they didn't show it anymore because they knew that I'm too stubborn and I will never care about what they say. If I was at their place pun I would feel the same. Well human have some feelings when they are so tired to hear the same things over and over, tired to tell the same things over and over. Ahah, I talk about human feelings like I'm an alien. Ah who cares? But sometimes I used to think like I'm an alien because I am so weird sometimes. err not sometimes actually, but most of the times.
So I've spotted my bad attitude. My attitude that I really need to change. Bukan sorang je cakap but a few people keep saying the same thing.
"Kau degil lah Jo"
"Aku dah cakap tapi kau tak dengar"
"Kau ni kalau orang cakap sikiit melenting"
"Dulu kau cakap kau nak berubah tapi kau sama je"
Omg. Amirah Auni, Jo, please wake up from sleep. This is not you. Totally not you. It is so touched when my old bestfriend text me and told me that i've changed a lot. I'm different. This is not the old me. nah. I don't really know where the real Amirah Auni is. Is she missing or she has died? I don't know. I wish she's only missing searching for something then she'll come to me again. I miss you Jo. HAHA. I'm feeling psycho and cute talking to myself. I think one day i'll be in psychiatric ward. Am i spelling it right? Eh lantak.
So I'm not promising anything. I used to said, "aku nak berubah" "aku dah berubah" and still, I back to normal. So this time, I take everything positively memandangkan mekpoh has text me and said he miss the old me. So i really need to be the old me. The new one is suck. But I believe everything that already happen is all because of my fault. My one fault, my own mistakes. I'm not going to blame anyone. Just please, I really hope everyone will stay because one day I will go. And I really hope all of you is there when I'm leaving.
Last, thanks to everyone that truly care. Thanks to the one that come and hug me when I really need a hug. Ah thanks lah semua. hm tapi sekarang nak meroyan ni. Semalam topup lima hinggit buat internet tibatiba lupa off packet data digi telan kredit aku. bye dah takmu kawan digi hmm bye hmm internet seringgit sampai pukul 12 malam. Pukul 12 lupa nak tutup, empat ringgit kena telan walaupun masatu phone tgh guna wifi rumah hm. Stupid jo as usual. Bye.
Good morning, good afternoon, good evening, good night everyone. Ah lantak lah bila masa engkorang nak baca pun. Tak kisah sangat pun. So hi. Tell me you miss me please. Eceh. Tapi kalau tak rindu pun memang faham, siapalah aku dihati engkorang ni. Ehem
So takda nak update apa pun hari ni, takda nak bebel banyak sangat pun, update ni pun sebab macam dah lama sangat tak update blog, just in case ada yang rindu walaupun aku tahu engkorang semua ni ego taknak mengaku.
Dengan sedikit bangga nya nak cakap yang aku baru je habis presentation oral yang markah nya tak seberapa sangat aku dapat. Sikit sangat je markahnya. Mana nak dapat markah banyak kalau dah preparation pun last minute. Pagi tu baru nak siapkan text, walaupun memang tak siap juga. No matter what I'm still thankful for what I got. Something happen for a reason gitu ha. Eceh
Hm hm hm hows life? So far good. Mula mengorak langkah sendiri sebab malas dah nak fikir orang lain. Baru je sehari dua ni kena buat naya dekat orang tapi takpa. Aku peduli apa. Peduli tu peduli tapi malas nak fikir. Its all about people that keep judging what am I doing. Could you guys just let me do anything freely? Could you please take me for who I am? Malas tau nak puaskan hati orang ni. Penat nak fikir gitu.
Lepastu lepastu aku rasa macam aku dah malas nak menaip sebab ada sesuatu yang menghilangkan mood aku. Jadi itu saja dari aku untuk hari ini. Aku harap juga engkorang semua ni rindu aku. Semoga betul betul rindu. Jadi nasihat aku untuk hari ini, jadilahmanusia yang tak pernah condemn orang. Biarlahh orang nak buat apa yang diorang suka. Kalau apa yang diorang buat tu salah, engkorang tegur lah. Tapi ingat, nak menegur pun kena ada adab. Oleh itu pepandai lah menegur.
Sekian dari saya, Amirah Auni. Sekian terimakasih :D
dah banyak sangat rasanya buat salah dengan semua orang. Maafkan semua salah silap. Maaf andai ada terkasar bahasa segala bagai. I just can't pleased everybody at the same time.
Orang tu suruh jadi macam ni, orang ni suruh jadi macamtu, so how? Let me just be myself. Stay if want. Go if you can't stay. Life is just an option. Aku rasa aku dah banyak masalah sangat. DAh banyak benda aku buat. Aku sibuk nak jadi orang lain sampai aku dah tak jumpa siapa aku.
Sampai satu tahap aku memang dah takboleh nak handle langsung dah. Like seriously langsung takboleh nak handle.Aku tak kuat. Semua orang tak kuat. Tapi apa yang aku hadap sekarang, betul betul benda yang aku paling takut.
Aku akan balik sekiranya ada rezeki, sekiranya takda rezeki, cari aku kat sini. Aku akan kekal di tempat di mana orang selesa dengan aku.Aku cuma boleh minta maaf atas semua salah silap. Aku tahu dekat sana bukan ada yang peduli pasal aku. Bukan aku je perasan tapi ramai.
Biarlah. Sekali lagi maaf. Sorry mama abah. Sorry kawan kawan. Sorry. Aku rindu diri aku. Assalamualaikum.
