Safely arrived at Ipoh, New York. Yes. I bring the heart together. I mean the broken heart. My fault. My fault. My fault. Keep saying that is my fault. My stupid thinking. Oh god. Why lah me is like this? Why? I just hate to say goodbye. But why did everything end? Why? He hates me. Yes he did. But please know that you've change me. A lot. Hm. Tapi nak buat macam mana doh. Semua habis dah. No more the sweet moment. The bad thing is, he knows my feeling. He knows what i feel. But is he understand? Tak. Biar ah. Takpa. Your fault Jo your fault. The moment when he said selamat jalan sangat lah sedih. The moment he said No sangat lah sentap. The moment he said no more sweet sweet sangat lah frust. Sangat sangat sangat. I can feel the change. Since last night. I can feel. And what i feel is true. Very true. Hm. Dia baca blog ni. Yang semalam punya entry. No wonder he knows my feeling. Hm. Aku memang dah pasang niat nak confess dekat dia senanya. Tapi sempat dia baca blog ni dulu. Aku lambat. Tapi lambat ke cepat sama je senanya. He hates me already i guess. Hm.
EVERYTHING CHANGES. I left the moment in Kelantan. That is what we call memories. But i'll remember everything. I will. Thanks a lot for the very wonderful moment. A very very sweet moment. Hehe. Thanks a lot. Saya dah lama tak kejut orang bangun pagi macam tu. Saya dah lama tak suruh siapa siapa teman saya buat assignment malam malam. Saya dah lama tak tunggu mesej siapa siapa sebelum ni. Saya dah lama tak kacau orang tengah tengah malam. Kacau dia tidur. Saya dah lama tak tunggu lelaki online selain zizan. Dan saya takpernah se serious ini. Ini jujur. Please know that i'm serious. I'm sorry. Forgive me.
Hm. Dan aku. Harap benda ni takpernah jadi. Dah sah sah lepas ni semua berubah. I mean semua. Fuhh. I'm not ready yet for that. Seriously i'm not. Hm. Sekarang ni takda siapa boleh faham hati ni. Sumpah aku taktahu macam mana nak cakap apa yang aku rasa sekarang ni. For sure aku rasa sangat sangat bodoh. Aku rasa sangat teruk. I'm nothing. Aku rasa aku kosong. Takde ape ape pun. Ya Allah. Aku harap lepas ni aku okay. JUJUR. DAH LAMA TAK FALL IN LOVE DENGAN LELAKI NORMAL DAN BIASA. before this duk zizan zizan je. DIa buat aku lupa zizan woi. Haha. Sorry zizan. Now, duduk balik dalam hati saya. Dia dah tinggalkan tempat tu. Hm. Dah ah. Tolong lah faham rasa nak nangis sekarang. I need my mama. The one who knows everything about his daughter. Fufuh. Bye assalamualaikum. And dear you,
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